I met this photographer about two years ago, and if I search my mind, I can pinpoint the exact date and time. I heard his story and I felt an instant connection. I felt that he had come into my life to help me. I took the business cards he gave me. He gave me about five. I never forgot them because they were the only business cards I had seen made from plastic, that you can see through. When I called him he said, “you need a video for your book.” It’s going to cost you X$ and you need to do this, that and the other. I thought about it and became petrified. I had to do all this, step out of my comfort zone, do something I never did before, get people I never met before to do things for me? It was frightening. So, I called him and said, “I change my mind, I will sort this out myself.” I did not communicate with him for more than a year, but I always remember his name and his story.
When I finally stopped being afraid, and knew it was now, or never, I went back to him to get some professional photos done for my website. I went to pick them up, and I hated them. And while I was busy convincing myself, that I was not afraid, I cancelled the photos and told him to delete them. I did not even care about the sixty-two pounds, I had already paid. I would do this myself.
Then he sent me a text. It went like this, “so you’re running away once again. You wanted to look like someone else, and that’s what we did. You wanted us to make you look rich, and pretty, like Lisa Nichols, so that’s what we did.”
You see, if God, the creator wanted the Beyoncé experience he would go to Beyoncé. He came to you because he wanted your experience. Any type of Beyoncé you can be, will be a fake, a copy, an imitation. But you are the original, the authentic, and the new experience. Most of us stop being ourselves, we stop being who we are, and who we can be, we stop doing what we came to do, because we are so afraid. Fear stops us in our tracks. But when we get out of fear, we see the utter magnificence of who we really are, and who we can be.
So, after the photo shoot we did the video, I tried to run away from two years ago.
Don’t try to run away from yourself, for it will chase you to hell, and back.
Joyce Louison – Warrior of light
New Thought Movement UK
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